Growing up and bullying

When i was younger i couldn’t wait to get older. It seemed so fun hanging out with friends whenever you want, staying out late and going to parties. As i got older these things did happen but they didn’t seem as cool as it was when i was younger. Sometimes when my birthday roles around i do wish that i was a kid again and all my worries and problems wouldn’t be a big deal and i could just live and have fun like it used to be.

I know growing up happens whether we like it or not and over time we become more mature (well most people do) and tend to look back at the fun times or bad times we had as a kid. Then that part of the conversation comes up when you wish that if you had the knowledge you had now would make things back then better and how much you would things differently. Yeah that is a good idea and all but if those mistakes were never made and the decisions you made back then were changed then you wouldn’t be the same person you are now. Yea i would love to change some things that happened in my past or take up on opportunities i passed but i might be in a whole different place and the good things happening in my life now wouldn’t have happened. My past made me a better person, it showed me what was right and what was wrong. I gained a lot of knowledge and common sense. Yea it wasn’t all that easy and i dealt with a lot but now i am a stronger person because of it all. Hopefully when i’m forty and look back at my twenties i can say i had fun and learned a lot and overall it made me even a better person than i was back then. By then i plan on being rich and just chillen on the new yacht i just purchased or maybe still watching Harry Potter at my house every weekend with people who also like Harry Potter.

I remember having a conversation with someone about bullying. As we were talking he starts saying “Bullying happens to everyone” and continues on some really stupid thing about how its not really a big deal. I was really shocked when that person said that and i thought 1) that is some really ignorant shit to say and 2) that is something someone who bullies or has bullied people would say and not give two shits about doing it. Bullying does happen to a lot of people and for all different reasons, I myself have been bullied before. When i was bullied it sucked, i never knew why these people thought it was a good idea to bully me and how no one did anything about it. After it ended and i started moving on i did realize one thing about that whole thing. That people that did bully me aren’t and haven’t amount to anything and they never will. One of them actually delivered my pizza once and i just laughed. These people were suppose to be the cool kids and they were all that and a bad of chips but now that they graduated and life has hit them they won’t do anything productive for themselves and i’m ok with that.

Bullying has gotten even worse due to social media. Ill check news websites or just read the paper and ill see kids getting arrested for cyber bullying. Which is great and people should see consequences for their actions but i never truly understood why people want to bully someone else. People who bully others, all they are doing is really hurting someone in the long run. That will have a lasting effect on someone, yes there are people that forgive the people that bullied them and have moved on from it. Other times people don’t ever forget and decide to take action and end it right then and there. Which leads to school shootings, you see events like Virginia Tech or Columbine because of bullying. There are tons of more shootings across the country and even the world because of someone getting tired of being bullied. It is sad because they feel that they can’t turn to anyone or that even if they did it wouldn’t change anything or whatever the reason maybe. No one should be put through hell enough to want to take your own life or take the lives of others. Hopefully soon people and schools realize that it is a problem and it isn’t kids being kids or boys being boys or girls being girls. Make bullying come to the fore front and show that it is a serious problem that has to be dealt with so no more lives are affected by it.

I will be in the tree fort if anyone is looking for me.

Change (not the money kind) and social media.

Before i get to the main topic of this post i just want to say thank you to everyone who follows me and also reads/likes my post. I didn’t think anyone would actually read what i have typed on here. i figured it would just be a friend or two but seeing a good amount of people liking my posts and following my blog is amazing. Hopefully i can keep you all interested for many more posts.

Everyone deals with change. No, not the change in your pocket even though money is nice to have when you need it. I am talking about the other kind of change. For me personally change has been that person you know but aren’t the biggest fan of. You will say hi to them but you don’t really want to. That is how i see change, sometimes i see it way to much other times i don’t see it at all. I have moved tons of times, gone to different schools, met different people, lived with different people. The list can go on for a long time, but change is a good and a bad thing depending on what is changing. If your moving to a new town and getting to experience a whole new atmosphere then your used to then change can be new and interesting. On the other hand change can be a asshole and really mess up how things are going like a death in the family or losing a job. In the long run it is a learning experience and can make you a better person. Just depends on how you adapt to it.

After these three more weeks of resting my foot because the fracture i caused hopefully i can make some changes myself. I have a solid blueprint of things i need to get done and want to be different once my walking is back at 100% or even 90%. For an example to get my license. I know what you may be thinking twenty years old and not even a license? Well due to certain maturity levels and other bad excuses i still do not have my license. Since i do have this free time i do have time to study and get mentally prepared for it but in the state of Connecticut (which i live in, but that is obvious since i am talking about it. Sorry i  am not a very smart person sometimes. It happens, as you are seeing it now.) to get your license you need a adult permit then wait three months then be able to take the test to get your license. There are other things i am working on but those will be surprises which i will talk about after a certain amount of time and completion.

I remember back in summer of 2008 and all my friends were hanging out and getting new computers, all i heard about was facebook and twitter. I didn’t know what either of those sites were because i didn’t have a computer and i was moving to a different city to live with my father. When i started high school they provided me and all the other students with tablets so we can do school work at home and in school. That was when i started using facebook and twitter little did i know how popular and crazy these sites would be.

My issue with social media is how people are so invested into them. You could be driving and i bet you will see a minimum ten people either driving while texting, talking on their phone or even on their phone at a red light. It has taken over people’s lives. In person interaction has taken a back seat, nowadays if you want to talk to someone you could just text them or message them on facebook then talking to them on the phone and seeing them in person. I remember when i was younger before all these smartphones were coming out and all kids had were landlines. If you wanted to talk to someone you either had to call them, see them in person or talk to them on IM. Those were the days when social media wasn’t all that big and really all i had was Myspace (which is so much cooler then facebook or any other sites to be honest.) Hopefully one day there can be a way when people don’t need their phones 24/7 and wont be endangering their lives while driving just so they can see what is happening on instagram.

As i sit and wait till technology gets more advanced i will be in my tree fort playing Nintendo 64 and playing Pokemon stadium 2.

Damn you educational system.

I posted a video on youtube which is a shorter version of this post and if you want to watch it here is the link

So yesterday my dad and i were talking about school and what we liked and disliked about all of it. For me school was never fun and a waste of time. I say this because sitting in a class for eighty-eight minutes (my high school is different, four classes a day, eighty eight minutes.) so we covered a lot more then average forty-five minute classes but most of the time it was just really boring and i just wanted to walk out every time. I know most or maybe even all high school kids feel or felt the same way because they rather be home or hanging out with friends then being in school. My whole point was being that school is trying to prepare you for the next year when you get to high school it is suppose to prepare you for college. Which at least for me that wasn’t the case. It was always just about college, college and oh yeah college. Never about right now and learning these lessons now. So i always felt that people were more concerned about college then actually teaching so the students can understand what is going on. I am not trying to bash any teacher, or students or guidance counselors but when they say they are trying to prepare us for the future truly they’re not. You don’t learn anything about how to get a used car or anything about taxes or managing money or how to live on budget. Thing most kids in college do when the time comes. Yes i know you have parents to help you with all of that but what if your parent work all the time and don’t have the time to be there for you? That is when school should come in but sadly it does not.

I know this may seem like i’m complaining about school but i’m not. This whole educational system doesn’t really prepare you for anything. They make kids take all these required classes that for the most part they won’t remember after they graduate. If school was more focused on what kids will do after high school like getting a job, getting their own car, moving on their own, opening a bank account, taxes or even helped students prepare for life and help them get better at what they love. So if they love history they should be able to take history classes that go more in depth into history and don’t use the textbooks that a good amount of the time aren’t even true. Or even something with art or music or writing, for the students to decide what their passion is and get better at it. This whole you need to learn about science and history and math and english is crazy. Most of the time most of the science, history, math and english you don’t use or care enough to remember.

For most of my life i was raised by my mother. My parents got divorced so for seven years i lived with her and who ever she was dating at the time. She always made it clear to me that college is so important and how i have to go to college. So when i go to school it was always about college, never about now. Every year was the same routine. So when i got to high school i really wasn’t all that prepared (this was when i moved in with my father.) I also didn’t care because i knew that when i graduated most of what was taught to me it won’t matter 5-10 years down the line. My grades were bad, i’m not a dumb kid i just didn’t try. I just got so tried hearing of college this or college that, that it blew my mind how no one cared about now. Learning now. Always about the future, which is something you should think about but shouldn’t be focused on one thing but on everything. As of right now i am in community college. Trying to get better at writing because that is something i am passionate about. If i get a degree that’s cool but if i don’t then that is cool to.

I don’t want people to think i’m against going to college or anything like that. I know it may seem like that because most of what i talked about was college. It was just my experience in school. My whole point is that we take these classes all our lives for what? To learn about things we don’t have interest in or even remember a year from then? School should be a place where you can take what you love and get better at it or help find something you are interested in. Help you for the future and be able to help you get ready for being an adult. Helping you have a better life and help you gain knowledge.

I have a question for you the reader. How was your high school/college experience? If you could change anything about education and what kids learn what would it be?

Until next time i will be in my tree fort just watching TV and relaxing because every once and a while it is just nice to take a breather.

Positivity and Happiness.

One chance, one life and one time to do what we love with who we love and then it’s over. Life is such an interesting/weird/confusing concept to be honest. Some people can define life and what life means but at the end of the day no one truly know what life is. I see life as this moment in time where we are able to experience happiness and experience sadness. Some can be experience triumph while others experience pain. Which is why i try and stay positive about life and everything that happens because of it. If negativity is always in your life and you doubt yourself and let that negativity get to you then life is going to suck and just be full of sad and painful situations. When you are positive in life others around you feed off of that and they will become more positive then their family and friends feed off that positivity and that leads to a whole chain of people being positive and having happier days. It should be this easy, at the end of the day i know it isn’t. Sometimes life can get so shitty that it’s hard to stay positive. You can feel so low and nothing can go right no matter how hard you work or how hard you try and move forward. At the end of day if you keep working hard and keep trying your best do better for yourself or even for the others around you it pays off. It may not seem like it, but it does.

I wish this planet Earth was full of happiness and people loving each other for who they are. We all know it isn’t like that. To be honest it will never be like that. Life has death, lies, pain, sorrow, etc. We all know, every person whether rich or poor deals with these things. The most important thing we all must do from all these emotions and hard times in our lives is to grow. Learn from what bad things have happened and be a better person because of it. Life only gives us one shot, one chance to do right and live how we want. So no matter what happens, whether it be good or bad, try and keep trying to keep your head held high, have people who love you and support you and find the treasure at the end of the hunt. If you do then life becomes that much sweeter my victorious friend.

Now that i have finished  i will be in the tree fort just hanging out.

Seeking attention and insecurities

I remember starting my first day of 5th grade, i was new to the school and i didn’t know anybody. When i walked into the classroom every kid in the class was just staring at me probably trying to figure out who i was. It was very intense and that was when i realized that being the center of attention wasn’t for me. This is a reason why i don’t understand people who love being the center of attention or do their best to try to be. Yeah sometimes it is nice to have the spotlight especially if you are being recognized for something you have worked really hard on or won something of some sort. If your just trying to be the center of attention for no reason at all besides you love the attention then people most likely (in my opinion) will not spend much time with you and maybe even ignore you because all your trying to do is be in the spotlight.

Something i don’t understand about people is when let’s say it’s you and a bunch of your friends hanging out and you have that one friend that tries to put all their attention into that one friend and even when that friend is talking to someone else they try their hardest just for that friend to answer them and take them away from the person they were talking to. (I am not trying to sound like i’m jealous, because i personally don’t think i am that kind of person to get jealous.) It bothers me because you can see “Michael” talking to someone else about (insert topic here) and “Tony” is trying to get Michael’s attention when you clearly see him talking to someone else, it’s very rude and just so inconsiderate of other people. I have been in situations like this before and it happens all the time and it blows my mind how people keep doing this with no care.

The whole point of that is that if you are the kind of person that goes out and tries to seek attention or try to get a single person’s attention while that person is doing something else don’t. Having the attention toward you has it’s perks but there are better things out there to do. If more people just dealt with sharing that attention with others then things would be better for you and the others around you.

All of that leads me to my next topic at hand, insecurities. Everyone has their own insecurities, some may hate their big toe and never wear sandals, while others don’t like how they look. Whatever it is, no matter what it is most people try and hide their insecurities because they don’t want other people seeing it or feel like they are judging you. I have insecurities myself, i don’t like how i look in most clothes and when i’m around a lot of people i don’t know i get really weird and just want to leave. I don’t really address my insecurities with other people or anyone in fact because i try and avoid those talks with people about trying to make me feel better and such. Me doing this is something out of my comfort zone. You are lucky i like you.

At the same time i think people including myself should accept their insecurities. They should be considered more of a positive thing then negative. It is something about you that makes you different then the next person. Everyone is different and everyone has different likes and dislikes about themselves. If more people embraced them more then people would be a lot happier and you wouldn’t see some people get bullied over them. (Bullying is a whole other topic.) Since we live on this water filled planet called Earth people take advantage of people due to their insecurities and judge people because of them. JUST LOVE YOURSELF AND WHEN YOU DO OTHERS WILL AS WELL AND IF THEY DON”T THEN THEY CAN KICK ROCKS!

Hopefully people learned a little bit today from lessons from John. As long as you love yourself and just do you then today can be that much better. We all know that today could be the last. So embrace everything about yourself whether it looks weird or not. When you start loving you as a whole so will everyone else. On that note my tree fort just paged me, she misses me and i can’t keep my love waiting.

Advice for kids in high school

Everyone has to deal with high school. I know that for some kids high school is the worst time in their lives while others have a great time and miss being in high school. My high school experience would be in the middle of those two. It wasn’t bad but not all the great either. It is that time in life where people try to find themselves, figure out who their friends are and dating/sex is a big deal. In the grand scheme of things high school is just small part of your life but it does leave a lasting effect.

I remember being a child and wanting to grow up and go to high school. Going to parties, hanging out with friends, skipping class, going to class trips to other countries. Sounds fun doesn’t it? When i got to high school it wasn’t as fun as i thought it would be. Teachers sometimes can be pretty shitty, classmates can be assholes and overall life in high school is rough. My advice for anyone who is in high school or entering is this: just take everything a day at a time. If you try to hard to think about what college to apply and making your transcript look nice and other things it is only going to stress you out and make your four years rough. Yes your future is important and trying to get in college is good but there are times when getting into the best college and getting some degree that won’t help or mean anything isn’t worth the trouble. Your young, be young. Make mistakes, make memories, have fun! Its a time in life where you can get away with things you can’t when your in college struggling for money and eating ramen every night.

Most kids in high school want to date. You want to go see a movie with that cute girl/boy in your math class. Make out during the movie and tell your friends and cant wait to see them in school the next day. Some kids fall in love easily and then get crushed if that person stops talking to them all together or doesn’t want to go on a second date. Dating is fun, just be careful about having sex and don’t rush into something like that. It is your first time and it should be with someone you really like and feel your first time should be with this person.

Grades. Very important thing in school, yeah homework can be a bitch and projects are shitty but do it. I know checking facebook and twitter and tumblr is a lot more interesting then writing a report about Hamlet. As long as you get your shit done then life is that much easier. I know at my high school we got laptops and doing homework and projects go on a the back burner when you are in class playing games and messaging friends that are across the school. My grades were shit, my overall GPA in school was 1.8. I don’t know how i even graduated but i did. YAY!!!! DO YOUR SCHOOL WORK IT MAY NOT BE FUN OR IMPORTANT TO YOU BUT JUST DO IT, IT WILL MAKE YOU A LITTLE HAPPY, YOUR TEACHERS WILL NOT BE ON YOUR ASS 24/7 AND YOUR PARENTS WONT BE ON YOUR ASS EITHER 0R LEGAL GUARDIAN OR WHOEVER CARES ABOUT YOU!!!! JUST FUCKING DO IT!!!!!

In all honesty high school can either be fun, the worst fours years of your life or somewhere in between. Try and make the most of it, because after high school the real world is your new friend and he can be a douchebag for a long time and no one wants that now. Just have fun, meet new people, go out get a girlfriend or boyfriend, party (with soda and water no drugs!!, well most kids start smoking weed and drinking but i mean if that is your thing.) and have fun. Your a kid. Be a kid. Make mistakes, get yelled at. Well maybe don’t get yelled at because that could just ruin your day. All i’m trying to say is be yourself, don’t let high school change who you are. No one likes a fake friend, all people want is the real you and if they don’t then they can go and kick rocks.

So since now i’m going to look back at my yearbook and cry and think of all the memories and friends i made in high school and lay down and weep because i’m old and have a job and college and other real world problems. I will just be in my tree fort watching kids TV shows and movies so i can feel young again.

Handling money, religion, learning new things

After my parents got divorced money became very distant. My parents (wont name which one) wasn’t good with money so we struggled a lot. We moved a lot and i had to see bills not being paid, struggling just to get something to eat and even taking whatever money i had without even asking for god knows what. I learned how not to deal with money, so now that i have a job i have my own money. No one is taking it from me, i buy what i want when i want. I have to work on saving my money. Since i’m so used to not having money i tend to spend more then i would like. Yeah it is always nice to spend money on yourself when you want some clothes or go to dinner with some friends but making that a everything day thing isn’t all that great when money isn’t always there. Now that i don’t work because of my “disastrous” foot injury i’m not making any money. Whatever money i have has to be saved (which should be done anyway, it is always good to save your money.) so i still have money when i come back to work. This was a nice reality check for me honestly, making money every week and spending it on things i truly don’t need when i should be saving it. Yes i know i should of done it when i first got my job but as you can see from this post that is a little to late so might as well start now right? RIGHT!! Hopefully whoever is reading this learns something. Save, Save and oh right save. Saving your money is such a great thing because one day you could look in your bank account seeing thousands of dollars that you earned and it makes you feel like a big baller shot caller.

Religion, this is one of the most controversial topics in the entire universe. People argue all the time all over the world about religion. Especially about if God is real or not. Honestly i believe no one knows truly if he/she is real. None us were there when Jesus was “alive” so i can’t sit here and 100% believe that he is real. When you think about how the earth came to be and how all these crazy technologies and other amazing advances have happened it does make me think. Then it’s like maybe he/she or whatever God is real. I don’t think i’ll ever know if Jesus or god was real or not. What does bother me a lot about religion is when people try and force you to believe in what they do. Everyone has a choice, so if they want to believe in God or not that is their choice and no one should be forcing anyone to do follow a certain god and read certain books and other things. Especially when i see people in New York or other cities and they are yelling at people because they are gay and how much their love is a sin and trying to convince people to follow their ways. You’re an asshole if you do something like that, i mean if you had people come to your neighborhood and churches and walk around with God isn’t real signs and religion is bullshit signs people would lose their minds but since they can say gay is sin and fags shouldn’t be married it’s ok for them to do it. Which it is not. For your information sir or madam.

The most interesting thing about religion is what it does for people. You will see people hit rock bottom and go through some life changing stuff then find their faith and it makes them a better person. It is amazing, because how much religion has effected them and want to make them a better person and make the people around him/her even better. It shows me that religion isn’t as bad as people make it out to be.

If i had the chance i would love to travel to different countries, experience new cultures and meet all different types of people. Yea i also would love to travel around these United States but after a while there is so much more out there then just 50 states. I would want to travel to Canada, All around Europe, South America, Central America, Africa and everywhere in between. Hopefully before i leave this earth i could say i did so much traveling and opened my eyes, mind and heart to things that people wouldn’t experience on a daily basis. One can dream right?

Besides traveling i want to learn to play the guitar, go to more concerts, read more books and go see a place that isn’t my house or school or work. Learning new things is an amazing apart of being alive. You have this chance to experience new things and make memories that will last until you die. Learning new things doesn’t necessarily have to involve traveling somewhere or spending tons of money, you could do it at home. Read a new book, watch a movie you always wanted to watch or maybe learn a new language from online videos. Trying something new is exciting and it keeps life fresh. I wouldn’t want the same routine everyday by going to a job i hate and not doing what makes me happy. Even though that is my life right now. I’m still young i have plenty of time to expand my mind.

Money, religion, learning new things. Some of these things are great while others not so much. Since i don’t have a lot of money, not sure about my faith and aren’t learning new things right now i am going to be in my tree fort if anyone needs me, hopefully not because i do not like being disturbed during my alone time.

Common sense, Conspiracy theories and politics

Common sense: “good sense and sound judgment in practical matters.” (Thanks Google!) My old friend, i see him every so often but only when i really need to. Some people in this beautiful magical world we call Earth do not know my friend common sense. I mean there was a point when i didn’t have him in my life but that was when i was very little. Now that i’m older and wiser our friendship has grown stronger and hopefully can last till the end of time.

So many people on this planet don’t have any common sense and it blows my mind. Honestly, how hard is it to have common sense. I know some people whose common sense is turned off or in a locked cage that they lost the key for. For example, if someone asks you to jump off a bridge with them with just because you say no! Why you ask? Most likely if you jump of a bridge say the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco you most likely will die. Right before you answer you should think to yourself is this the right thing to do? To jump off a bridge. That right there is a common sense moment. Maybe that wasn’t the best example but it was a simple one for people who are new to this concept. Every so often i’ll read articles online and see that people do the craziest things and then i realize that their common sense switch has been turned off or hasn’t even been set up yet. Now i am not saying i am perfect with my common sense. There have been very small situations where my common sense has taken a 5 minute break and hurt me. So i can’t sit here and complain all that much about other people when i haven’t always been best friends with Mr.Sense. I would love to live in a world where everyone is friends with him and we could live happily ever after and hangout on the big comfy couch.

When it comes to conspiracy theories i don’t care for them all that much. I don’t know who killed John F. Kennedy (Lee Harvey Oswald) or what really happened during 9/11 or what is really happening in Area 51 and honestly i don’t care either. I think conspiracy theories are cool to talk about but when you put years and years into to trying to figure out what really happened is a little much. The only people that truly know what happened with these conspiracy theories are the government. Only they know who killed JFK (Lee Harvey Oswald or that is what they want us to think?!) 9/11 and Area 51. Maybe one day a person on the inside will leak the truth sort of like what Edward Snowden or Bradley Manning have done. Then the public can finally get the answers they’ve wanted for decades and all these shows about conspiracy theories can end and we can move on with our lives and worry about something else.

conspiracy theories

Politics, now this is one topic i want to avoid as much as possible because it causes so much drama between people all across the world. Politics are so controversial it blows my mind, if you bring up something within the world of politics to the wrong person have fun with an endless debate and maybe even a punch in the face. I have family members that are really into politics, they are so into it that they can talk about it for hours then try to convince you to believe in everything that they are saying and will put you in their mailing list and send you all these articles from people who they believe are so in tune with everything that if you don’t read it then your just an asshole and ignorant to what is REALLY HAPPENING!!!!!! That is why i don’t talk about politics. It leads to no where and mostly the people who want to talk about politics are people who can’t change anything and who rather just bitch and moan about how they can’t wait for Obama to end his presidency and get some other guy who will probably suck and then start bitching about him or maybe even a her.

Either way whether we have a black, white, female, male, tall, short, skinny, or fat president people are always going to disagree and with the help of social media tell everyone they know not to vote for this person because they think they are such a shitty person and are in conspiracy with the devil or some other ridiculous claim they came up with. Can’t we all just get alone? Please? For the children.

Now that this is all out there i’ll be in the lovely place i call home aka my tree fort watching Drake and Josh and other old TV shows i loved when i was younger.

Pet peeve’s, time travel, and heroes

Everyone on this planet has something that pisses them off to a whole other level. For certain people it’s not using coasters but for others it could be using the phone to much. I have pet peeves that may not be as insane as some but at least i think they make some sense for people to understand. First, texting during a movie. I can understand if you are at home and text someone while watching a movie. What bothers me the most is when people text during a movie they spend 11 or more dollars and see it with a friend. To me it just seems really disrespectful to text during a movie while your with a friend. Then to my response why did you spend money on a movie ticket to see a movie your not going to watch? Or go with me to see a movie and not watch it because you would rather text. This pet peeve’s is one of the main reasons i go see movies alone. The second peeve of pet’s is asking me questions. I know that may seem really weird, that i hate being asked questions. I do not hate being asked questions it is just when people try and ask me a million questions all at once. That shit really chaps my hide. When someone does that to me it makes me feel like i’m being interrogated for a murder or something of that nature.

People will always have pet peeve’s whether they like it or not. Some have insane and impractical pet peeves while others have average and other types of general pet peeves. Either way people get pissed off by other people. Isn’t this the back bone of the world?? It makes the world go round. Stupid people pissing off other people because they do or say stupid things. Could be worse.

Oh time travel is something i wish was real. Secretly i believe it is, i know that may seem impossible but anything is possible. I do not know any government secrets but there is a possibility that time travel is real and only the government controls it so it doesn’t fall into the wrong hands. Maybe i have been watching to many time travel movies?? I don’t know, if time travel was real and i had access to it i would go back and see so many moments in history. I wouldn’t change anything because then that would mess up the future and i don’t want to be responsible for that at all then the world hates me and murders me because in the words of Billy Madison “i blew it!”

I blew it....sorry

If time travel was monitored just so people can see events and not change anything then that would be great, but knowing people someone or something is going to ruin it for everyone and mess up the world so some dictator takes over the world and we become permanent slaves. Maybe i should write this down and possibly make a story out of this….i think it could be a bestseller. I certainly would buy it if i saw it in the stores.

As kids get older they like to believe in superheros like Superman or Batman. Look up to athletes in their favorite sports and try their best to be like him/her. I think it is great for someone like a child to look up to someone. It provides hope and gives them motivation to strive and achieve their dreams. As people get older i think they lose their faith in the people they thought were heroes when they were children. There are some people in the spotlight that turn out to be really bad people or end up doing some really bad stuff. There are people out there that are great role models, people that kids and even adults can stand behind and truly appreciate everything they do. I have a hero myself, his name you ask? (I know you didn’t ask. I am sorry.) Jackie Robinson. Every since i was a child i have looked up to him more then anyone else. Even though he died way before i was even born that doesn’t matter to me. He taught me so much, i learned that it doesn’t matter if your black, white, spanish, blue, lavender or teal if you have a dream don’t stop just because some people don’t like you or feel you won’t achieve anything. He did something that changed sports forever, he became the first african american to break the color barrier in major league baseball. Having to play against teams and being in front of fans who threw things at him and called him everything from A-Z. That didn’t stop him from doing what he loved. The best thing about that was that he was good at baseball, it would be different if he wasn’t any good at baseball. He has changed my life for the better and i wish he was still alive so i could have a chance to thank for everything i have learned from him.

Well i am going to be in my tree fort watching 42, thinking about time travel and where i would go first and dealing with people pissing me off because of my pet peeves. Some quiet time won’t kill me. I hope not because then that would be just awkward now wouldn’t it?

What the future holds, how i dress and people’s opinions.

During this point in my life i am trying to figure out my future. I have people around me who constantly talk to me about my future and what i want to do and how i am going to do it. What confuses me is these people aren’t qualified for this advice and haven’t done anything themselves. I didn’t know i appointed them to help me out for a career. I have things i truly love, for example i love to write, which is why i started this blog in the first place. This blog isn’t to get tons and tons of people to view it. If no one looks at this or reads it doesn’t bother me at all. I love writing stories and have tons of ideas written down that i work on and hopefully one day could have a novel out and published. Which is a reason why i love to read. It makes me a better writer because i see different writing styles and the passion people put into their writings to share to the world. One day it would be awesome to see someone reading a book i wrote and put so much time and effort into and enjoy it. So now that i have tons of free time i will continue to write and i am going to get more books/books about writing to help me become a better writer. Eventually i will come back and write an update on where my writing is going and what i am planning on doing. (Whether you like it or not.)

So many people in my life give me tons and tons of shit for how i dress. I don’t tend to wear pants, i wear shorts (preferably basketball based) and sweatpants. To clarify it is not because i’m big. I won’t say fat because i don’t like using that term. It’s really fucked up and not cool. I do not have trouble finding a pair of pants in my size either. I find pants easier then people think, yes i shop at regular stores and not some big and tall stores. The main reason i do this is because i really don’t care what i wear. Now, its not because of some insecurities or whatever you may think. I just simply do not care. I dress to be comfortable, i don’t dress to impress other people or to go out to a places where i need to dress up. I rather wear a hoodie or a jacket and wear some sweatpants then wear polo shirts and khaki pants and be in some room around a bunch of people who i highly doubt i will ever see again. We have one life and one chance to do what we want and how we want. I choose to dress how i dress because it’s comfortable and makes me happy. There are very few occasions where i have wear clothes that are dressy. What i don’t get is looking nice to go see a movie. For one you are sitting in the dark so no one is able to see what you look like or how your dressing, then your watching a movie for two hours then most of the time you go home afterwards.

After all of this, if whoever you maybe have a problem with how i dress then keep it to yourself. I don’t plan on changing how i dress for anyone. I like how i dress and everything is comfortable. (As i have said numerous times just in case you didn’t understand.) I may seem upset or anything truly i’m not. It just gets old when many people around make jokes about you. It old, so i figure i express my opinion and my feelings on this topic. Until the day changed where i dress differently then i will rock my shorts, hoodie’s and shoes.

Social media has made everything more public. If someone has a problem with a their favorite TV show they could just go on twitter or facebook or any social media site and complain to their friends and the world about his/her issue. With social media it has led to cyber bullying or people talking about each other. Now for me i don’t worry to much on other’s people opinion’s. Most of the time it is just negative and i don’t need to worry about that drama. Whether the opinion is what i believe for politics, religion, music i listen to, what sports team i like, to me in the end it doesn’t mean a thing. One day we are all going to die, it is inevitable so why should we worry about what someone says then living my life and liking what i do. I feel if people stopped caring about what others think and just deal with what you feel is right and listen to your friends and family (if they have good opinions or aren’t assholes about everything.) People would be a lot better off in the long run. At least in my opinion of course.

While i figure out my future wearing basketball shorts and ignoring ignorant people i will be enjoying myself and continue to better myself in my tree fort that one day will be so high tech and advance everyone will want to come in and i won’t let that happen. It is a one man club and no one is invited. Unless your Emma Watson then you are always invited.